Tamara Kalinowska

Extracts from the interviews

 

Glaudel: Piotr Skrzynecki used to say that no one can sing about woman, love and solitude as beautifully as Tamara. And we listen to those songs, in which we hear your own story...

Tamara: Piort had the special gift. He introduced everybody so tenderly and wonderfully. He was able to find proper words, tell the story of a song and of a singer. It was really moving. I say that I sing about all the things that may happen to a man, who lives, thinks and feels. I sing about myself, but also about others. Yes, I'm always familiar with the emotions I describe. I would neither be able to nor dare to write about something I had not experienced (directly or indirectly).

- The audience identifies with these emotions. Do you think, that people who listen to your songs, find their own feelings in them?

Tamara: I hope so and it scares me at the same time. Though I sing about overcoming the problems and difficulties we face in our everyday life, about a hard way to the inner self, to happiness. And though there is always a light in the tunnel, hope for a better reconciliation, I'm scared by the fact that there are so many people for whom happiness is beyond reach. I comfort myself that the audience gets so emotionally involved only because I am convincing onstage. I am the song I sing. But that's the way I am. I put all my heart into whatever I do.


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I sing about people
 

M. Hodalska: In everyman's life there are the dark, gloomy days, when he feels betrayed, deceived, unnecessary and unwanted. It's too embarrassing to speak it out. And suddenly that man hears his own thoughts put into words, expressed and sung...

Tamara: I really don't have to experience everything just to imagine the feelings of a man and woman in a dreadful situation.

- You once said that your song needed time: "I felt I have to prove their credibility with my own life. Otherwise no one would believe me". But you don't sing only about yourself, do you?

Tamara:† If I believed that someone might thought it's about me, I would come onstage for sure. I will never disclose which song is about me. There's a part of me in every song.

- That's why they are so authentic.

Tamara: I've gone through many bad things in my life. I have stayed alive and I live to tell the story. I managed. Those songs are about overcoming the problems and difficulties. I believe there is always a way out.

- People are sometimes emboldened by your honesty. Do they come to tell you that you sang about them as well?

Tamara: Yes. And I'm scared when I see tears in their eyes. I can only ask them to listen to the end of each song, because there they can find hope. But it scares me. Because people say very often:† "God, that song was about me".

- The end of each song brings back hope. It's like in a song "Whatever is to hurt - let it hurt" ("Co boleś ma niech boli"). You sing: "The time will come to believe/ That the angel above my head/ Was wrong only once". Do you belie in happy end?

Tamara: I believe that if we strive to be happy, we will be, no matter what will happen. Because you can lose everything and everyone, and find your place in charity, helping the sick and dying people.

- But, still, Your songs are about those moments, where there is no hope, no light in a tunnel. "One can't leave in that manner/ can't say bye in a cold way/ with no care of what's after/ with no shock that it's over". The lyrics persuade you to listen to somebody's story, to his grief and despair. It's like a friend's confession.

Tamara: I know. Everyone tells me that. I sing about interpersonal relations.

- When you're onstage, you create the atmosphere of a peculiar intimacy. I observed your audience, so emotionally engaged and careful.

Tamara:† I always sing to somebody. I treat the whole audience as one person. Most of my songs I begin with "I", "My", "Me", "You".